When you've gone over something AGAIN and AGAIN and AGAIN and AGAIN like I have, certain questions get answered, OTHERS SPRING UP! You mind plays tricks on you, YOU PLAY TRICKS BACK! It's like you're unraveling a big cable-knit sweater that someone keeps on knitting and knitting and knitting and knitting and knitting and knitting and knitting..."

Monday, February 28, 2005

for arts sake!

Went to the Gates this weekend and thought it was really cool. Had heard people gripe and mock them which made me think they might just be actual art. True enough. I thought they were very evocative on so many levels. I'll be sorry to see them go, but would rather have them only be here for a short while that stay and become tatty and touristed.
Went to go see the 1927 movie Wings at the Film Forum which won the first best picture oscar. I can see why. It still really holds up. Gary Cooper is in it for all of five minutes, but it's a real textbook study of what star quality is all about. Also, the movie...gay, gay, gay. If you get the chance see it. As usual, the FF rocked for making an event out of it w/ live piano accompaniment.
Show went well on Saturday, but house only about half full. Whatup. I hate worrying about this shit but it is an issue.
didn't do much of anything on Sunday except catch up on my Netflix. Stepford Wives (eh, so), 1951's The Thing (actually really good). also finished reading F. Scott Fitzgerald's This Side Of Paradise. I was having a time with it until the last 20 pages when it all came together and became kind of brilliant.
finished the rust cashmere scarf and attempted to fix the garter row goof. probably should have left it alone, b/c you hardly notice, but hey. was going to block it a little, but couldn't find my squirt bottle and got lazy. i'm going to crank out a little mohair scarf while i'm plugging away on flames. started on the second sleeve friday and it already looks 110x better than the first. oh, well.

Friday, February 25, 2005

no time for cashmere

well, i didn't get the rust cashmere scarf done for my friend's birthday yesterday but i'm more than halfway done and i can definitely have it done for monday which is when we will meet again. he is lending me some opera glasses. He is going to see the dress rehearsal at the met of Don Carlo and i have a ticket that night for Turandot. We'll probably hand off in the lobby. I'm excited about it. I went to get the ticket after I went to my dr's office for a biopsy. I really wanted to get away from myself and I don't know how much farther away from me you can get than puccini's ice queen of mythical china. i believe i am destined to work there b/c when i was walking around waiting for the box office to open, i noticed the dedication plaque with the quote about about the arts from John D. Rockefeller is dated 6/22/63--my birthday! Hey, I just directed a successful sungthru show. I'm ready for the Met! Speaking of which, last night's show was brilliant. John Wallowitch, our featured composer and all around great guy, was there and LOVED it. Whew! http://www.tosos2.org
am going to boyz nite at knit new york tonight and can't wait. will start on the other sleeve of the flame sweater. am saving the cashmere for catching up on my netflix. my co-worker here just gave me a bag of Lindor truffles. life is good.

Thursday, February 24, 2005

joy of giving

i gave my friend the purple/blue rayon kercheif yesterday after weaving in the ends and sewing in a tiny silver J at the point. she loved it and it looks so good on her. great color for a redhead. then went home to do some power knitting on the rust cashmere scarf and discovered that I had goofed in the pattern semi early on. it's a real easy two row pattern: 27 stitches on 11's. Row1: *k3, p1* repeat k3 more to finish row. Row 2: k all. Not rocket science and it looks great. But in my haste i had done two row 2's in a row and have a nice even line of garter stitch in the middle of the rib. what i will do rather than ripping it out is continue to the end of the skein, mark it, attached the second (and final skein) continue in pattern to where I did the garter stitch row, do a garter stitch row and then continue in pattern to the end of the skein. that way the two garter stitch rows will match and show in the front and my friend will have a completely unique scarf from the finberg design vaults! i am, however, open to suggestions!

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

Seduced, Deflowered, Addicted...

...to Cashmere. I am making an old friend of mine a Cashmere scarf out of Last Minute Knitted Gifts and finally found this beautiful affordable rust colored cashmere/ mohair blend. I started working on it last night. Woo-hoo. I'm hooked. It's just too much fun to work with. It behaves, it knits up great and it's so damn soft. I want one of these for me! I've never worked with Cashmere before but I TOTALLY get it now. I hope that someday I'll be in the position that I can drop 50$ a skein and not think about it, but for now woo-hoo-hoo I'm in love. I thank my friend rebecca for turning me into a fiber snob. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I give away the kercheif tonight. At first I didn't like it, but I think that was a combination of surprise that it took so long and that I didn't think it was big enough. It is fine and lovely and she will really love it. With the cashmere, I'm going to have to do some power knitting b/c it should ideally be done by tomrorow night. It's a pleasure to work on, I don't want to have to go that fast, but I also would like to get this done so I can go back to my flames sweater.

Tuesday, February 22, 2005


The good news is I bought a camera on Friday to post pix to this site. The bad news is it looks like the lens is broken or something funky like that. The good news is I bought a interface card for my home computer so I can finally access the DSL account I set up. The bad news is I can't get it to work. I don't know why I am so techno-cursed. That machines see me and start laughing. No fair, guys! I do my job, do yours and stop being so damn fussy.
Good long weekend. Finished the kerchief scarf I was doing for my friends anniversary. I think it may have come out little small. Or I have a huge neck. I am going to block it slightly and see if that makes a difference. Also, I finally went to another yarn shop I've been hearing about in New York. It's called Purl and it's on Sullivan Street. Cute. Small. Very crowded when I went. But the owner who wrote a book which i bought myself for Christmas called LAST MINUTE KNIT GIFTS was there. She was very nice and very helpful and I got a couple of skeins of cashmere/mohair for something I was intending to make out of her book as a last minute gift for 30$ a skein (130 yards each). Not bad. I would recommend the place. It's small but they do have a good selection of really nice stuff. I don't know if I'd go there for a huge project, but I will say they were very nice and helpful. Even though it was crowded I felt very comfortable and at home there. Also finished my skull cap and the first sleeve of flames. With the cold weather, I caught up on my Netflix and knitting. The kerchief is just about ready for Wednesday's party (need to weave in ends, lightly block and personalize it for her) so I need to get cranking on the cashmere for Thursday. Am going to the Stitch and Bitch tonight at Dean and Deluca on University Place so hopefully will make a good stab at it there.

Friday, February 18, 2005

jacko is wacko and other big news

didn't get a chance to do much knitting yesterday. had the cap in my bag, but couldn't really do any knitting during the day. they go pretty fast, so I may have it done by tonight. I got almost to the halfway point watching that Michael Jackson Special Report. I wish I could take the high road on this one , but I have to admit I'm fascinated. It was also a good thing to knit by b/c there wasn't a whole lot to watch, just a lot of montages of him walking around waving at fans and really lame stuff like: the voice over of the uncle saying "they took a bath together" accompanied by random montaged shots of a generic bath tub. please. is this news or a music video? so, I didn't have to look up much. my two cents: yes Jacko is a whackjob. just the footage of him talking about putting children to bed non sexually "I tuck them into bed, I put on little music, we put on the fireplace, we have hot milk, it's charming"--is chilling and sad. but what kind of star fucker parent pimps out their kid like that? you can't tell me that the parents didn't know there was anything strange going on. Michael Jackson has attached himself to your family. an international superstar is in your living room playing nintendo w/ your kid. an international superstar needs to have your kid sleep in the same room as him in a locked suite while you stay in guest quarters. that doesn't strike you as...I don't know, odd to say the very least? you don't think there's anything unusual going on? please. i can't stop thinking about those parents and who these kids are actually being abused by.
anyway, enough. am going to go to KnitNY Boyz Nite tonigh and finish off the sleeve there. I look forward to it every week, though i liked it better in the past when we didn't have to leave at 11.
my show opened last night and was great!!!! http://www.tosos2.org am looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow. and, of course, starting on the next sleeve. can't believe this sweater is knitting up as fast as it is. of course, I'm more than a little obsessed with getting it done so I can actually wear it in the cold.

Thursday, February 17, 2005


Am almost finished with the first sleeve from the flame sweater. It looks pretty good . I am going to have to do a little minor surgery on it b/c even when I was carrying yarn for just a couple of stitches in the back it was too tight and I made the fabric pucker a bit. Also, for some reason my gauge changed on the sleeve and I reached the cap shape before I finished stitch increases on either side. Nothing major though, I will start the decreases anyway. I don't think there's any danger of it being too tight under the arm even if it is a bit smaller than planned.
I have embarked on a few smaller side projects that I am giving away as gifts and I need to have them cranked out by next week. I am making a small kerchief/scarf for a friend's year anniversary out of this funky purple and blue sparkled ribbon. A friend of mine's birthday is next thursday and I want to crank out a cashmere scarf for him. At the moment, I'm cranking out a little black skull cap for me, just cause it's easy, portable, I need one, it's fun on four needles and I've got all this black yarn. Was making an easy open work scarf for one of my leading ladies out of kid mohair and was noticing that it seemed to be getting narrower and narrow as I went a long. Then I noticed when I was about 2/3 of the way through that I had been decreasing a stitch on every eyelet row so I cut the width in half. Got it all ripped out when it knotted. Luckily I have plenty, but it's just aggravating.
Not having a huge amount of time to knit lately, but the show I've been working on opens tonight and the next one doesn't start till Saturday, so I'll have a bit coming up. Also, my home email is getting upgraded and am definitely getting that camera this weekend so I can post photos.

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Heartfelt Intarsia

I totally forgot it was Valentine's Day. Which is good, I guess. I have had some pretty miserable ones, single and with someone. Like one time, I was dating a costume designer and he filled my room with these paper hearts he had cut out of red crepe paper and drawn. I mean, the room is filled with thes. Very romantic, but we were bitching at each other two hours later. This is such a made up holiday, it grosses me out. Here's another reason to buy more stuff if you're with someone in hopes of getting some action or feeling shitty about yourself if you're not with someone. Holidays are supposed to make you feel good, right? I went by the Godiva store in Times Square and there was a line around the Godiva store. All guys. I bet they were hating Valentine's day too. I do love chocoalte, though. So February 15 is my celebration, when all that love goes on SALE!
I am currently working on the Jesse's flames sweater from SNB Nation. It has these muscle car flames going up the sleeves in red and yellow on a black background. I am almost done w/ the first sleeve. It's been fun and I always like to push myself w/ each project, but the tangling yarns has been driving me bananas! Anyone have any tips. The best I've gotten so far is untangle the yarn every row before you turn it. Ok. I'll try it.
I have 2portable projects going now, too, because the sweater is too big now and the color change needs me to find a space to spread out. SO I'm making a kid mohair scarf as a "sorry I told you I'd make you a baby seater for your neice, but I didn't. And a sparkly, ribbon kerchief for myfirend Once I get my camera, if that ever happens I''ll show them off.

Monday, February 14, 2005

100 books for 2005

I read on a blog that someone was trying to read 100 books in 2005. I read a lot anyway but I thought I could use this to log everything I read b/c I don't remember what I've read. I used to read a lot more, but it interferes w/ my knitting time and I don't have a commute so I don't read as much as I like to. Here's what I"ve got so far.

1: Dress Your Family in Courdoroy and Denim by David Sedaris
I've read all his books. This is great as usual and is a natural progression from Me Talk Pretty One Day. Some of the stories are really touching.
2: Wake Up, Sir by Jonathan Ames
I read The Extra Man a while ago and liked it b/c of the unusual story and characters. Thought it would make a really quirky and great indy movie. This is not as good. Quirky and has funny parts but after I read it I was like "Ok, what was that about"?
3: Believers by Charles Baxter
This is a collection of short stories that I highly recommend. I had never heard of Charles Baxter before but a friend gave me the book and I read it and will be passing it on. Lots of great imagery and emotion without being maudlin or sentimental.

I have a ton of books at home that I have to get rid of but I have to read them first! I know this is only three but it's only February!!! I am currently reading Holy Terror by Bob Colacella. It's a memior/bio of Andy Warhol that I've had forever. It's an easy read and very dishy.

Friday, February 11, 2005

100 Things About Me

I've seen this on other blogs and since this is a first attempt for me, what better way to get going:

1: I was born June 22nd, 1963. I'm a Cancer/Gemini cusp. It all fits.
2: I love dogs a bit more than cats. I'm allergic to cats and although I like hanging out with them I allergic to them. They seem to know this and stalk me.
3: I love to knit. Am complete obsessed by it. Am a bit obsessive by nature.
4: Consider myself a real child of the eighties since those were my formative years.
5: Went to an arts school. Wasn't like FAME. Have a BFA in acting, though directing is my calling. I write, too.
6: I'm a completely out gay man.
7: Have been in love a lot but the love of my life passed away in 1994. We were together for six fantastic years. I consider myself lucky to have known what that's like.
8: My dog Daisy is a border collie/terrier mix. I've had her since she was 11 weeks old and she will soon be fifteen. I love her, but she's always been a big wierdo.
9: I love movies but don't go to them a lot b/c people in movie theaters piss me off. I tend to rent more. Love netflix.
10: Don't go to the theatre as much as I should. Expensive!
11: Same w/ Opera. Although I do love it.
12: My favorite is blue.
13: I love chocolate. Especially dark chocolate. Especially Belgian Dark Chocolate.
14: I like the change of seasons, but I hate being cold. I love hot weather. Summer is my favorite time of year.
15: The beach, particularly, Jones Beach LI, is my favorite place in the world.
16: Paris would have to be number 2 but I've only been once.
17: I hate eggs. Just can't eat them.
18: I'm a total slob. I hate to do housework.
19: I hate shopping.
20: I'm going to get hit by lightning for this, I know, but I'm not a huge Barbra Streisand fan. The talent is undeniable, but the ego tends to overshadow that for me. Though WHAT'S UP DOC is one of my favorite movies.
21: Prefer comedy to drama.
22: I tend to stay up late, though I am rediscovering mornings. I like the quiet of them.
23: I think if could read half the time and knit the other half, I would be the happiest man alive.
24: I love to cook and am good at it, though rarely do anymore b/c I never seem to have the time.
25: I love seafood, but there's nothing like a really rare steak.
26: I love the smell of gasoline. And hairspray. And nail polish. Weird, I know.
27: I'm not really a clothes person, but constantly wish I had a better wardrobe.
28: I am a pool shark. I play on the gay/lesbian pool league in NY and I love my team!
29: I am a newly sober recovering alcoholic and feel like I'm experiencing everything for the first time.
30: I hate to work out and go through spurts of gym-mania and sloth. I do it, though.
31: I cannot believe that we have the President we have.
32: I hate people on cell phones. I have one, but it doesn't work very well so I haven't become one of those people yet.
33: I hate previews in movies.
34: I love the thought of travelling more than actually doing it.
35: I love roses, particularly white ones. (Fag!)
36: I love swimming.
37: I was on little league when I was a kid and hated it. I sucked.
38: I love bowling but am not real good at that either.
39: I love surprising myself and other people.
40: I hate being told what to do. The fastest way to get me to stop listening to you is to start a sentence w/ "You should".
41: I wish I could dance. And play a musical instrument. (Not at the same time.)
42: Michael Chabon and Edith Wharton are my favorite authors.
43: Comic books are art.
44: I love old television particularly Sanford and Son, The Jeffersons, The Odd Couple, 227. I remember when they were on originally. Yipe.
45. I hate Britney Spears, Jessica Simpson and Celine Dion. Puke.
46. I suspect Janet Jackson may be a fembot.
47. I love Ewan McGregor. And Jude Law. And Matt Damon. And Ashton Kutcher (though not when he's talking).
48. Guilty pleasure movie: Xanadu.
49. Sixteen Candles needs to go on my favorite movie list.
50. I hate J-Lo, P. Diddy, Paris Hilton, ALicia Keys and Will Smith.
51. I love Julianne Moore.
52. I don't usually go for horror movies, but once in a while I get in the mood for one.
53. I really don't like hip-hop music. Sorry.
54. I used to work at MTV. SO not glamorous. Maybe that's why I have an aversion all these pop favorites. Nothin' goin on there, folks.
55. Love New York. Have no opinion about LA. Have only been there twice. Don't see myself living there, but never say never.
56. I don't have a driver's license.
57. I want to go to Italy next. Venice, Rome and Tuscany.
58. I've been to London and liked it, but prefer parisiens to londonners. Ironically, they were nicer to me.
59. Have developped a sweet tooth since I quit drinking.
60. My friends really keep me going.
61. I have more LP's that CD's and I have a ton of CD's.
62. I wish I had an interesting day job. I envy you guys that work in yarn stores though having worked in fashion, publishing, and television my bullshit tolerance is very very low.
63. I'm not a technophobe, but I am retarded when it comes to technology. Machines don't like me a whole lot.
64. Going out to dinner is one of my favorite things. Especially if someone else is paying.
65. I love Glasgow, Scotland.
66. I like other people's kids but am glad I don't have any of my own and don't feel obligated or driven to make any.
67. If I could start my career track over I would like to go into psychology, sociology, anthropology or archeology.
68. I read Tarot cards but don't live by them.
69. I love jewelry but tend to lose it.
70. I collect dragonflies. They are the coollest.
71. I have a tattoo on my left shoulder of a dragonfly with the infinity symbol over its head. It means forever summer to me.
72. I love canasta, scrabble and Jeopardy.
73. Gameboy: clueless.
74. Weirdos are interesting to me.
75. I wish I could draw, though I'm pretty good at gesture drawing, or paint.
76. I wish I had a rockstar boyfriend.
77. I love Chris Carraba, Peter Yorn, John Mayer. See #76.
78. I am a word nerd and a number idiot.
79. I have a fear of money. I'm either feast or famine with it.
80. My friend Rebecca turned me into a fiber snob. Also, I prefer bamboo needles to anything else.
81. I'm a heavy sleeper once I get there.
82. I want a house, but I don't want to have to take care of it.
83. I rent a lot of porn.
84. I can't believe I'm as old as I am, but I wouldn't go back.
85. I love liver, spinach, brocolli and asparagus.
86. I try not to go to Starbucks but I love their Chai Lattes.
87. I wish I had a bigger apartment with a lower rent. I love my neighborhood, though. I live in Hell's Kitchen.
88. I wish I had an ipod. Got a new stereo for Christmas and am in Heaven.
89. Never been to a school reunion or would want to go one.
90. Wish I could be political without getting emotional. Red states! Not going to go there...
91. Of the seven deadlies, envy probably gets me the most.
92. I bitch more than I explode.
93. I am shy in new situations, but am getting a lot better thanks to AA and Lexapro.
94. I don't like lima beans, fava beans, peas or mayonaise.
95. Saw Supersize Me and still eat at McDonalds.
96. Love Spongebob. Patrick is my favorite!
97. Just started going to the boyz nite at KnitNY and it's one of the highlights of my week.
98. My landlord is a DICK!
99. Wish I lived closer to the FilmForum in NYC.
100. Yes, I have superhero action figures! I admit it. And they aren't even in their boxes, okay!