When you've gone over something AGAIN and AGAIN and AGAIN and AGAIN like I have, certain questions get answered, OTHERS SPRING UP! You mind plays tricks on you, YOU PLAY TRICKS BACK! It's like you're unraveling a big cable-knit sweater that someone keeps on knitting and knitting and knitting and knitting and knitting and knitting and knitting..."

Thursday, May 12, 2005

staircase

you ever feel like life is this endless staircase and you just keep going up and up and up? that's what i feel like lately. i am suffering from some major fatigue and the metaphor got very physical w/ me last night. lugging my laundry down the stairs, lugging my dog down the stairs and wandering around w/ her for half an hour, lugging her back upstairs to watch her pee on my kitchen floor after half an hour of wandering around w/ her, lugging my laundry that didn't get all the way dry and is therefore heavier back up the stairs. i just feel like i'm climbing further and further and further and i'm exhausted but i keep climbing. and what for? for something to do? why reason over an inaminate object like a staircase. it just is.
i am, however, very excited about the new knit project. holding a mohair and a mohair blend together to cast on was challenging but having gotten the first few rows out of the way, it's falling into place. bob's large dragonfly stitch markers came in very handy when casting 120 stitches onto a size 11 circular and they're so pretty i almost want to keep them as part of the finished garment. the colors of the piece--fucshia and mauve w/ some darker viscouse and a metalic thread--look so good together. and the feel of the mohair is delish. i'm keeping it simple b/c my last mohair experience wasn't great. i couldn't rip out the mistakes w/o damaging the peice, so i ended up starting over several times and ultimately almost running out of material.
anyway, i want nothing more than to curl up on a landing with my knitting and take a vacation from the staircase. but would i keep climbing if i ever got a chance to rest?

2 Comments:

Blogger MarQ1 said...

All those stairs are why New Yorkers are healthier than people who spend their lives in cars and ranch houses. They're good for you.
You probably don't want to hear this.

4:41 PM

 
Blogger Tres said...

You sound like you need some inspiration.

Dig out some music that you really love and spend 20 minutes listening to it with headphones on and the rest of the world turned off. Or go look at some art.

I usually feel most fatigued when I don't make time for myself like that. You need it like you need food and air, you just may not realize it.

10:07 PM

 

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